I Am Mermaid

January 14, 2016



For Love and Lemons dress // SHOP SIMILAR


When I was a little girl, all I wanted to be was Ariel from The Little Mermaid. That was my favorite Disney movie of all time. I was literally brought to tears at the end of the movie when she goes off to marry her prince because I was so damn sad that the story was over and I would have to leave Ariel’s magical world . . . until I rewound and started from the beginning again. I miss those VHS days! Totally nerdy, I know. I think all of us as girls, and now as women, found a whole lot of ourselves in Ariel, and especially in her rebelliousness. Ariel is like all of us who who grew up in a tiny town in Middle America, or a sleepy suburb a long drive from a big city. Ariel wanted excitement and unexpected curveballs . . . a path untrodden . . . serious adventures. She followed her heart even though everyone told her she was silly and stupid for doing so. That takes some tough guts. She was fiery, just like her hair. This For Love and Lemons dress reminds me of something washed up from the sea, and it only made sense to photograph it on a deliciously warm and sunny day home in California. Sun soaking remedies all woes. Like Ariel, I like knowing I can have the best of both worlds. For me, that’s both the west coast and the east coast. I know that I am lucky to say this. Whenever I find myself in need of an escape, I’m only a 6 hour flight away from my sunny haven of a front porch back home at my parent’s house. My appreciation for where I stemmed from has grown tenfold since I was a rowdy kid looking for a way out. When I was younger, all I wanted was to get the heck out of the valley and its endless rows of bland, cookie cutter homes with small front yards. The movie theatre and indoor mall, sole providers of entertainment, bored me to death. Sports teams and cheerleaders literally ruled the school, yes . . . kids got stuffed into lockers, and the SAT was life or death. I myself felt far removed from this world. I didn’t care for a letterman jacket nor dating a letterman jacket. I didn’t even go to prom. A big city, far, far away from home was the end goal. That’s where my heaviest sights were. At the time, extremely boggled (and secretly scared) at ways to get to that end goal. But now I’m here. In the biggest city in the world. Crazy to think about who I was then, who I am now and the the things I’ve experienced in-between. I wouldn’t change what I have now for the world, but I’m happy to know I can always swim back home when need be. That I can always rely on. Tail or no tail. But at the end of the day, I’ll always be perpetually swimming in untouched waters towards something new, because that is most exciting. In a way, I am some sort of mermaid.