There are so many things about being an adult that are both scary and beautiful. Some just scary, some just beautiful, but many end up being both at the same time. I just turned 30, and believe me, it took me some time to accept the changes that come with growing up. And especially the hard ones. The ones I fought hardest to get through are the ones I find are my luckiest experiences to go through. That’s exactly what Herbal Essences‘ latest campaign is all about. Embracing change and letting life in.
When I was younger, I was a heavy dreamer with fantastic visions of the future that changed almost every second. And while in my dreams I was invincible and confident and spoke my mind, I found that when faced with reality, I held myself back. I wasn’t exactly the person I was in my head when I was asleep at night or daydreamed. There was something there that kept me from putting myself out there because I was afraid of failure, or unwanted attention or maybe something else that I still cannot explain today. All I knew was that my confidence was lacking, but I knew deep down, that I wanted more and that I was someday going to get to where I needed to be. For me, it just took some time.
Growing up I experienced bullying from a few male classmates. My features, my height, my ethnic background, these all became things that I was ashamed of about myself. My hair, long and straight, was always my reliable shield. Something to hide behind when I didn’t want to be seen. Or at least, it made me feel like I couldn’t be seen. I wanted to keep my hair long to hide the fact that I had scoliosis, But even then, my hair wasn’t something I loved, even though it helped protect me. I wished it was blonder. Wavier. Like what I saw on TV.
It took me a while to come to terms with my body. It took years of comparing myself too much and scrutinizing my imperfections too harshly, before I could finally step outside of the perspective I thought others around me had of me. Once I stepped out of that, I slowly became more and more free. It was like a drawn out personal training session that I had to give myself on the daily. Creating my blog, expressing my feelings, showing my face to the world and being proud of what it represented . . . all of these things helped me. And finally, the hair on my head became less of a shield each day. Instead, it was just simply something that was a part of me that I appreciated purely for the fact that it was mine. Long and somewhere in the middle behind straight and slightly wavy. Always a little messy. Split ends here and there. Beautiful to some, maybe even plain to others, but to me it was just mine and that is all I needed to appreciate it. It felt good to no longer need a shield of hair to hide behind. It was my first step towards being courageous. I’m still on that path, and getting closer and closer every single day. Now you tell me . . . how do you #EmbraceChange and #LetLifeIn? What changes have you been through that made you who you are today? And how open are you what is to come next, especially when you have no idea what that may be? Take part and spread the word; share this VIDEO.
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