Writing

A Self Portrait

August 14, 2020

My creative vision for my here and now makes every single day feel more effortless amongst the chaos. I find myself craving more and more each day the beauty that comes with inconsistency and imperfection, and appreciating more and more what I’ve overlooked in the past. Tomorrow’s unpredictability has lit a hopeful fire within to take every little thing and create from it something substantial for today because today must count for something. And that is how we move forward. Today’s blue sky, the wind in my hair, the squint of my eye in the sun, the deep breath I take in the morning, the weight of the hand of my partner … they all count towards feelings today that give me hope for tomorrow.

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I’ve always dreamed of living out in the middle of nowhere with only the sound of the sea and the taste of salt in the air as my muses, even though it does seem a bit outrageous to think far ahead into the future when tomorrow already feels so unpredictable enough. But we all learn to adapt without even realizing. This new normal we are in may not last forever, but remnants of it will always stick with us in the years to come. The future doesn’t feel so scary and unknown when we know we have the ability to adapt and change for the better, and the belief that our dreams can still play a guiding part in it all. Human nature is so complex; I’m still trying to wrap my mind around it all and why I feel certain ways without even fully understanding them. At least I know that sometimes all all you need is a few simple senses (touch, taste, sight, smell, hearing) to rely on to get you through to the next thing one little step at a time. Life is worth living for these things.

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Wellbeing Update

July 24, 2020

Pale Swimwear bikini
Karen Walker sunglasses

Shot of 35mm film

This week finally felt like the most productive work and project wise since March. There was a hint of normalcy as I spent hours editing in front of a screen to make deadlines. It felt good to have a sense of that “back to the grind” mentality, but to be completely honest, I’ve gotten used to this new slower and more thoughtful pace that has transformed my routine these past few months. And as a result, it has completely changed my perspective on my work and what I want it to represent on this platform. I had a lot of time to focus on my wellness and inner peace that didn’t rely on the success of my career. I was still “working”, but I was working far more for myself. And that felt like freedom. And just as much as I felt lost this year, it was also no surprise that I found myself more energized and creatively inspired more than ever this year. And even with the world still so unclear and so fragile and so unpredictable and with many days that felt low and dark, I have found that there are still ways that we can find a sense of wellbeing amongst the madness. A new sense of “richness” that comes from within. As I go into the weekend, this is what I’ll be keeping in mind, and for every day to come. Give yourself a break this weekend. Feel the sunshine. Do what feels effortless to you.